JUST ONE MORE STEP

View from the meditation room upstairs, right before several big runs

I never thought I would go as far as to say that I actually enjoy running, which is why throughout middle school and high school I found solace in competitive swimming instead. I'm not exactly sure what incited me to create a running and workout regimen. I could thank the Ragnar race that Mike is trying to organize for April. I could thank my new workout gear and my first pair of legitimate running sneakers. I could thank all the extra time that I have albeit most days feel like there's never enough time. I could thank my extensive health care research considering I'm out of a real job with real benefits (rather, I should thank Mike for doing most of the research). The last thing I want is for my health to decay in the middle of me trying to pursue something. Because without your health, what can you really have?

I'm not sure how most people define success in terms of "getting in shape". The easiest way for me to think about it is in terms of how my clothes fit me. I'm still such a girly girl. Lately, my tightest pair of jeans seem to fit less snuggly and I've completely rid of my oversized shirts or sweaters because they just look ridiculous now (my girlfriends know what I'm referring to when I claim that I have an obsession with extremely baggy tops). And if it's any motivation, spooning with Mike at night feels more natural like two pleasantly stacked silver spoons. Sorry, TMI, I know.

I might be premature in saying this, but the last 4 weeks of consistent running have left me craving for more. As much as it physically and mentally hurts to run in 30deg weather, it's extremely exhilarating to be outside, to see your breath, and then to catch it. "Just one more step", I tell myself over and over again when I feel my body hitting the limit. Running is one of the only things in my life right now that I can track immediate progress of. Because attempting to start a business from scratch has many down days. I keep moving and I keep doing things, but it feels like I'm going nowhere because there's always SO MUCH more to do or think about. Despite it, my mood is still on the up and up.

Now back to work, back to my coffee, and then a really good run afterwards.