THE LONGEST TO-DO LIST OF MY LIFE

Morning coffee fix at Kava

I guess you could say that today is my first official day of self-employment. I woke up with my usual morning routine except now I could hear sirens, cars honking, and people shouting outside (hello to you too Midtown Manhattan). I was glad that I didn't wake up feeling regretful (about quitting my job), which was mentally and emotionally encouraging. I ate some french toast and gulped down a large cup of black coffee before heading out to the Ace Hotel lobby to get the day going. I had read somewhere online that it was a good place to work and write.

My goal today was to hone in all the scattered thoughts in my mind and redefine them in a digestible way (meaning... prioritize these thoughts on a colorful spreadsheet with timing implications). When I finally sat down and opened my computer, I didn't know where to begin. My thoughts had escaped me and I felt a sense of panic. How am I going to create a Wedding Planning business from scratch? What do I even know about weddings outside of attending a few of them? And how do I feel about not getting paid 'to work' today? Your mind does weird things to you. Just when you've built up all this courage and convincing that you have the passion and the competence, something inside tells you no... you can't do it. It took a few minutes, but I opened up a blank Google spreadsheet and started to mind dump. Hours later, I found myself staring at the longest to-do list of my life. Now, I'm energized.